Monday, November 28, 2011

We have a Roller

My little houdini Zachary has become quite the little roller.  A few nights we have gone into the nursery to find him rolled over and quite proud of himself.  I am kind of sad that the first person to see him roll; live and in person, was my Mom and not Bill or I.  I know that it is not supposed to be a big deal but deep down it kind of feels like it is.  We shall see if Miss Zoe decides to follow in her brother's footsteps. 

We got our family pictures back today and I think they turned out great.  It still feels very surreal to look at the pictures and see my dreams of a family looking right back at me. 

Friday, November 25, 2011


I love Thanksgiving.  It is absolutely one of my favorite days all year long.  It give us the opportunity to think of all the good things in our lives.  Here a just a few of mine.

I am thankful that I still have my Mom and Dad to share the day with.
I am thankful for my Sisters, without whom I would still be doing turkey day dishes.
I am thankful for my Nieces, the two most hilarious people I have ever known.
I am thankful for my Husband and his sweet, quiet way.
I am most thankful for the two sleeping babies in the nursery.

I hope that everyone had a wonderful time with their families this Thanksgiving.  I, for one, am going to do my best this year to keep the spirit of the day with me and be thankful for the good things in my life every day. 

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! 

Image Courtesy of Google Images

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Twins Must be Hard

We took the babies out last weekend to get family pictures taken.  They did pretty good by the way.  Poor Zach got a little hungry in the middle.  They were so nice about it!  They stopped, let us feed the babies and start back up about a half hour later.  He did not give us that million dollar smile though.  Turkey!  I should have pictures to post next week.

Every time we are out and about not one but many people will remark either that twins are hard or that I must be tired.  I want to be clear here, I really am not all that tired.  I don't know why people are always making negative comments like that.  It does get on my nerves.  Maybe, it's because I personally find life a lot more enjoyable if you approach it from a positive place. 

I look at Zach and Zoe as being every bit the blessing today as they were the day I found out about them.  I love these babies, I do. 

Monday, November 14, 2011


I am moody today, but I really don't know why. 

We only have one car that the babies can go in.  My car.  My car is in the shop with a laundry list of issues.  Luckily it will be fixed today, or unluckily when you look at what they will be charging us to fix it. 

The car situation is a source of irritation for me though.  We are so lucky to have my Mom watching the babies.  However, the car situation it is hard.  My commute was long to begin with.  Now, with all the loading and unloading and driving to my Mom's and then driving to work and then repeat again at night.. It's difficult.  I really wish my husband and I could share this a little.   It feels like I am just driving and working and driving some more.  The babies are cranky if they are not in bed by 6:30 so it doesn't even feel like I get to spend any time with them at all during the week.   

We talk about the car situation all the time, but another family car is not going to be possible for 5 years.  I think I am just feeling overwhelmed by a lot of things today but it is the car thing that has got my focus.  I know that this is a non issue.  The world is full of real problems and this is just not one of them.  

I know what a Waaahnie Butt! 

Sunday, November 13, 2011

One Year Ago Today...

Bill and I had to drive out South last night to pick up my Craigslist loot.  The ladies house happened to be right by the Conceptions office.  We started talking about how it was about this time last year that we made that journey.  Today, I looked back through our files and realized it was exactly one year ago today that we had our transfer.  Funny huh? 

I remember coming back from that appointment last year, so scared, but hopeful too.  I wanted it to work so badly.  I was terrified of how I would handle it if it didn't work  Secretly, I hoped for twins.  It seemed greedy to feel that way, so I don't think I ever actually said it. 

Somehow, someway all of our prayers were answered.  I don't know how we were so lucky.  Even now, I thank God everyday for these babies.  They are the most amazing gift to ever come into my life. 

The pictures you see are the first we ever received of our Zachary and our Zoe, one year ago today. 

Friday, November 11, 2011

I am a Craigslist Toy Addict......

It all started innocently enough, the babies were obsessed with the Baby Tad frog at my Mom's house.  Just thought I would look for another.  I wandered onto Craigslist and scored one for $5. 

I have found that there are many a toy that others have purchased for full price that there children have never played with.  My babies can have these toys at a deep discount.  Oh dear.  We have that frog, a doggie, a fire truck, a barbie car... Now this weekend the big score, the Fisher Price Step and Play Activity center. 

I fear I will not be able to stop the madness........

Friday, November 4, 2011

Happy Friday

What a great Friday I am having. Started out the morning with two happy babies. I love it when the day starts like that. Zoe was very impressed with her mobile this morning. I can't wait to get home and start the weekend with these babies. They are growing so much everyday.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The Little Couple

Although their journey is slightly different from mine, I do watch their show hoping for a happy outcome for them.

It was so interesting to watch the show. Last November, we went through our procedure and seeing it on TV really brought it all back to me. I was so happy to find out that their surrogate was pregnant. When they panned to their faces 6 weeks later, I recognized the expression. I won't lie, I cried. I remember that pain. It is something you would never wish on anyone. I remember going back and forth between needing to take time for myself to heal, to being so angry I couldn't even recognize myself, to urgently needing to be pregnant again. If I were just pregnant again, it would take away the pain. Obviously, it doesn't work that way; but your emotions are such a roller coaster after losing a baby.

This couple are exactly like Bill and I. I sincerely hope at the end of their journey, they get their happy ending too.