Technically, this is my very first Mother's Day.
As of this morning I am exactly 7 months along. I have to say that I never thought that this day would come. My dream for so many years was to have a baby. The fact that this is actually happening and that we are going to have not one but two children at the end of this is surreal.
My husband put together both the double stroller and one of the cribs tonight. It is amazing to be to the point where we are actually doing this. Up until this point, it has been real but not real if that makes any sense.
Bill is doing much better. He has recovered from his first surgery and had another since I last posted. Yes, I am a horrible blogger! Luckily, all of the tests ended up coming back normal so we are happy to be putting that chapter behind us now.
We have been having family drama over that last few weeks. I won't bore you with all of the details but his Mother who has never been a fan of me got very angry during his first hospital stay. She actually ended up calling me to yell at me and ended up screaming at the top of her lungs at my poor husband and hanging up on him. Not long after that phone call, his blood pressure plummeted and he almost passed out.
My husband who is absolutely the sweetest person I have ever known had not heard from her since. She had shown no concern for his health at all. Being the person that he is he sent her a beautiful Mother's Day edible arrangement. When he texted her today to see if she got it. He just got a nasty response and he found out that she actually had refused his gift. Can you imagine?
My Mother in Law is the type of person that seems to work very hard at pushing everyone out of her life but on the other hand is quite angry that she is alone. She has said on many occasions that her children are ungrateful and that she feels that they owe her.
As someone who has wanted to be a Mother for so long this behavior astounds me. I look at our babies as such an amazing blessing. I was lucky to be raised by an amazing Mother who shows me and now Bill such love and compassion everyday.
The stark comparison to my Mother in Law is beneficial as well. It will help me remember in the years to come what we had to go through to have these babies. It will help me to remember how my Mom raised me and to strive to be half the Mom that she is. It will help me to remember that being a Mom is the most important thing that I will ever do. It will help me to never forget the love that I feel right now as we anxiously await their arrival. The love that feels so large right now; that in a few years will be tiny by comparison.
I end today wishing a very Happy Mother's day to all the women out their who are currently raising their children; the women that are currently pregnant with their children; and especially to those out their that are still striving and searching for their own path to motherhood.
Happy Mother's Day to all of us!!
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