Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Weird Pregnancy Effects
I don't know if you call this a pregnancy effect or a pregnancy symptom. I basically can't feel my right hand. That probably sounds a little more dramatic than it needs to be. It is like my hand has fallen asleep; 24/7. It is driving me crazy! I have never heard of this from anyone else. Is this normal, or is it me and not my pregnancy that is weird?
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
These Babies Are Moving!!
This week has been a pretty amazing one. I have really begun to feel these babies moving around and it is the coolest thing.
Before my ultrasound last week, I was a little worried something was wrong because I hadn't felt anything yet. Boy, on Thursday that all changed. I swear they both did a complete 360 degree turn at the same time. Weird but amazing feeling!
I am going to enjoy this right now because I am sure in the not too distant future these babies are going to be beating me up real good!
Before my ultrasound last week, I was a little worried something was wrong because I hadn't felt anything yet. Boy, on Thursday that all changed. I swear they both did a complete 360 degree turn at the same time. Weird but amazing feeling!
I am going to enjoy this right now because I am sure in the not too distant future these babies are going to be beating me up real good!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
We have a.......
We are so excited right now, it's a boy and ........ a girl. Isn't that amazing? The ultrasound tech said " You can be done!"
Everything looked good, no problems at all. They couldn't get a good look at the girl's face because she was sleeping on her stomach. Which is funny, this was my previous sleeping position before the babies nixed it!
I will get an ultrasound every month now, so they should be able to get what they need on a future visit.
Right now, everything is full steam ahead with nothing to worry about. Until of course, I create something in my head to worry about. Stop it........
Everything looked good, no problems at all. They couldn't get a good look at the girl's face because she was sleeping on her stomach. Which is funny, this was my previous sleeping position before the babies nixed it!
I will get an ultrasound every month now, so they should be able to get what they need on a future visit.
Right now, everything is full steam ahead with nothing to worry about. Until of course, I create something in my head to worry about. Stop it........
Anatomy Scan Today
We leave in about an hour for our anatomy scan. I am nervous but excited also. Keep your fingers crossed for 2 healthy babies!!
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Misunderstandings, Miscommunications, and other Misses
Struggling tonight.
Sometimes in a relationship whether it be with friends, family or a significant other it is hard not to judge yourself. Conversations can grow wildly out of control and become completely different entities than they were ever intended to be.
I sit here contemplating whether it is really worth it. It seems like such a bother. I could just be quiet. Not say a word about how I am feeling; and live in ignorant bliss. Maybe being true to yourself is overrated.
Then again, maybe it isn't.
Sometimes in a relationship whether it be with friends, family or a significant other it is hard not to judge yourself. Conversations can grow wildly out of control and become completely different entities than they were ever intended to be.
I sit here contemplating whether it is really worth it. It seems like such a bother. I could just be quiet. Not say a word about how I am feeling; and live in ignorant bliss. Maybe being true to yourself is overrated.
Then again, maybe it isn't.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Glucose Screening Take 2!!
Well, tomorrow is the big day. I have to go back in to try and take the test one more time! I have been pretty sick all week so I am hoping for the best. I am going to get up, take my anti nausea pill, have a little something to eat and go for it! Wish me luck:-D
Other than that, things have been going pretty good. Getting pretty excited about the anatomy scan next week. I am keeping my fingers crossed that everything is still okay with the babies. I still worry so much; but I am fairly certain I will worry about them in one way or another for the rest of my life.
I have been looking at baby stuff but still have not been able to pull the trigger and buy anything. I think we are going to order the cribs tonight though. Big move! Making this first purchase has been a hard move for me to make. Important move though. Weird, I know. We just want these babies so much that the thought of something going terribly wrong and having a nursery in the house scare me to death.
However, it is time to stop avoiding...
Other than that, things have been going pretty good. Getting pretty excited about the anatomy scan next week. I am keeping my fingers crossed that everything is still okay with the babies. I still worry so much; but I am fairly certain I will worry about them in one way or another for the rest of my life.
I have been looking at baby stuff but still have not been able to pull the trigger and buy anything. I think we are going to order the cribs tonight though. Big move! Making this first purchase has been a hard move for me to make. Important move though. Weird, I know. We just want these babies so much that the thought of something going terribly wrong and having a nursery in the house scare me to death.
However, it is time to stop avoiding...
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Bad, Bad Blogger
I have not been very good lately about writing. I am a bad, bad blogger.
Things have been going pretty well lately. The anxiety with this pregnancy has pretty much gone by the wayside, with a brief occurrence here and there.
I did go in last week to do my gestational diabetes test. I think I had to do it early because I am officially considered high risk. I was so mad! I drank all of that horrible junk and guess what 2 seconds later it all came back to me. Gross! Now, I have to take the test again in a few weeks. When the receptionist told me, I said "Good luck with all that! Well, I guess we have 5 months to try and get it done!"
The Dr said part of the problem probably was me drinking it on an empty stomach. Truthfully, I was afraid if I ate it would mess with the results and I would have to do the 3 hour. I guess, I will try again in a couple of weeks and keep my fingers crossed the long version is not in my future.
We were not supposed to have an ultrasound at this appointment; but they were only able to find one baby's heartbeat with the doppler. A little scary for sure. They did give us an ultrasound and both babies are looking great! Heartbeats still around 160 for both and they weighed 5 and 4 ounces. Can't wait for the anatomy scan in 3 weeks!
My husband and I were able to go and look, just look at baby stuff last weekend. It was a lot of fun, to start thinking about what we need to get for their nursery. I am not quite ready to make purchases, but I am ready to start researching to see what has the highest safety ratings! Yes, I am a big stinking planner. Probably one of the reasons infertility was so hard on me.
I still have a pregnancy journal and a baby journal in my drawer that remain unwritten in. This is a struggle. I actually bought them the day I was having my miscarriage in July completely unaware of what was to come. We put them away to save for a happier time. Well here I am; and I find myself unable to pull them out.
It upsets me that I haven't been able to write in these journals. I am excited about these babies and I absolutely want them to know someday how much they were anticipated, wanted, and loved.
I know logically that I am through the rough patch. More likely than not, these babies will be okay. There is something about taking those journals out and writing in them that scares me a little. This is weird, I know it is. For lack of a better word, I am afraid writing will jinx something. Is it a superstition if it only affects me? The whole thing is weird, I know; and probably a little crazy too!
I am afraid that as always my Mother is right. She keeps telling me that I am doing too much, and I need to respect my pregnancy more and not fight it so much. As usual, today I tried to cram an entire weekend into one day and it exhausted me. Tomorrow, my plan is stay home and relax all day.
I am going to try my best to take those journals out tomorrow. I am going to take the cap of the pen and throw caution to the wind and just write. In every other aspect of my life, I have been able to push through what scares me and I will find a way to do just that in this instance as well!
Probably.
Things have been going pretty well lately. The anxiety with this pregnancy has pretty much gone by the wayside, with a brief occurrence here and there.
I did go in last week to do my gestational diabetes test. I think I had to do it early because I am officially considered high risk. I was so mad! I drank all of that horrible junk and guess what 2 seconds later it all came back to me. Gross! Now, I have to take the test again in a few weeks. When the receptionist told me, I said "Good luck with all that! Well, I guess we have 5 months to try and get it done!"
The Dr said part of the problem probably was me drinking it on an empty stomach. Truthfully, I was afraid if I ate it would mess with the results and I would have to do the 3 hour. I guess, I will try again in a couple of weeks and keep my fingers crossed the long version is not in my future.
We were not supposed to have an ultrasound at this appointment; but they were only able to find one baby's heartbeat with the doppler. A little scary for sure. They did give us an ultrasound and both babies are looking great! Heartbeats still around 160 for both and they weighed 5 and 4 ounces. Can't wait for the anatomy scan in 3 weeks!
My husband and I were able to go and look, just look at baby stuff last weekend. It was a lot of fun, to start thinking about what we need to get for their nursery. I am not quite ready to make purchases, but I am ready to start researching to see what has the highest safety ratings! Yes, I am a big stinking planner. Probably one of the reasons infertility was so hard on me.
I still have a pregnancy journal and a baby journal in my drawer that remain unwritten in. This is a struggle. I actually bought them the day I was having my miscarriage in July completely unaware of what was to come. We put them away to save for a happier time. Well here I am; and I find myself unable to pull them out.
It upsets me that I haven't been able to write in these journals. I am excited about these babies and I absolutely want them to know someday how much they were anticipated, wanted, and loved.
I know logically that I am through the rough patch. More likely than not, these babies will be okay. There is something about taking those journals out and writing in them that scares me a little. This is weird, I know it is. For lack of a better word, I am afraid writing will jinx something. Is it a superstition if it only affects me? The whole thing is weird, I know; and probably a little crazy too!
I am afraid that as always my Mother is right. She keeps telling me that I am doing too much, and I need to respect my pregnancy more and not fight it so much. As usual, today I tried to cram an entire weekend into one day and it exhausted me. Tomorrow, my plan is stay home and relax all day.
I am going to try my best to take those journals out tomorrow. I am going to take the cap of the pen and throw caution to the wind and just write. In every other aspect of my life, I have been able to push through what scares me and I will find a way to do just that in this instance as well!
Probably.
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